8 days and counting...

Next time I blog I will be a mom...Wow...it's real folks.

 

May 1st induction scheduled at 2:00pm

 

We had some friends over this weekend to swim and I sat around and did nothing for the most part.  I'm tired and have no energy.  But I did hold our friend's little foster baby for a while.  He is only 2 months and was born with a methadone addiction so he seems much younger than 2 months and he only weighs 8lbs,  which mine will only weigh for a half of a second probably.   But as I held him I kept switching feelings of "I'm ready for this" and "I'm scared".

 

I am watching way to many shows on TLC of A Baby Story where half of them labor forever and nothing ever goes right.  I don't know why I torture myself but it's like a car wreck I just can't stop watching.

 

Part of me is expecting a horrible labor,  everything about this pregnancy has been hard, from getting pregnant to sickness that wouldn't quit,  so of course I won't have a easy labor.  The other part of me is praying that Heavenly Father knows I need a break and Holden comes out quick and easy.  Only time will tell..

 

Either way it's too late to back out now and in 8-9 days I will be holding my little boy in my arms and none of this will matter anymore. 

 

Keeping my eye on the prize!

Less than 20 maybe baby??

So thanks to Mr. Ryan Stewart and the Stewart clan I am carrying a giant... 

 

My mom's biggest baby was 7lbs 3oz and I was only 6lbs and 7oz so carrying a baby that at 35 weeks is already measuring 6lbs 7oz is scary!  Ryan was 8lbs 12oz when he was born. My doctor has said he will not let me go past my due date so the longest I have to go is 26 days, but if my cervix cooperates and dilates to 2cm he will take me at 39 weeks which would be 19 days!!  He said he normally will let a first time mom go up to a week after her due date but after 39 weeks all that happens is your baby gains more weight and his number one priority is to keep me and baby safe and his number two priority is to get me to delivery vaginally so he will not let me go past my due date even if my cervix isn't cooperating.   I am so excited and nervous all at the same time.   I had my first cervix check yesterday and no dilation yet but it's soft and he thinks by next week I will have some dilation so we are hoping for 19 days!

 

I feel like we are as ready as we can be,  thanks to our awesome family and friends we have everything we need materially for the baby.  Now will we ever really be ready??  No but it's coming soon no matter what we do so we are going to fake it until we make it :)

 

I'm trying to prepare my puppies for the change in their world.   I am nervous....  Not that they won't love Holden because my dogs are great with kids but I don't want them to feel left out and unloved.  They have been my babies for years.  Maggie has been through every relationship since I was 20 and is my girl.  And my Zoey is my love bug who I loved the moment I saw her. They have been with me ever since I have been with Ryan and now are his puppies too.  They have sat on the couch with me while I have been sick or having a bad day crying and given me the hugs I needed.  I know it's going to different but I don't want to neglect them. And I'm worried they are going to be depressed.. 

 

 I will have to work extra hard to show them special love while the baby is sleeping or playing with daddy. :)