Next time I blog I will be a mom...Wow...it's real folks.
May 1st induction scheduled at 2:00pm
We had some friends over this weekend to swim and I sat around and did nothing for the most part. I'm tired and have no energy. But I did hold our friend's little foster baby for a while. He is only 2 months and was born with a methadone addiction so he seems much younger than 2 months and he only weighs 8lbs, which mine will only weigh for a half of a second probably. But as I held him I kept switching feelings of "I'm ready for this" and "I'm scared".
I am watching way to many shows on TLC of A Baby Story where half of them labor forever and nothing ever goes right. I don't know why I torture myself but it's like a car wreck I just can't stop watching.
Part of me is expecting a horrible labor, everything about this pregnancy has been hard, from getting pregnant to sickness that wouldn't quit, so of course I won't have a easy labor. The other part of me is praying that Heavenly Father knows I need a break and Holden comes out quick and easy. Only time will tell..
Either way it's too late to back out now and in 8-9 days I will be holding my little boy in my arms and none of this will matter anymore.
Keeping my eye on the prize!