May DoNe...CheCK!

I'm calling a wrap on May...and we survived!   We celebrated by doing nothing but relax this weekend, we saw the Avenger's, went and did a little school shopping for Ryan, watched the fight and some basketball.  I loved it!

The shots are done and over for now,   we did our egg retrieval last week and now they are freezing until we implant them.  We were looking at end of June, but I can't take off work that week and I need to be on bed rest for 72 hours so I would have to take off 3-4 days.  So we are looking at whatever transfer dates they decide in July.  As much as I am so ready for the next step it might be nice to give my backside a break all of June before I have to start the next set of shots before transfer.  Plus prepare my body for twins.   I always joke with Ryan that my patriarchal blessing states I will be blessed with children on high,   since it looks like this may be the only way we are able to have children and we cannot afford to do this yearly,  I'm taking that to mean maybe they are coming two at a time ;)

At least now I now the worst of it, the shots and retrival and I handled both pretty well.  We are hoping we have enough eggs for two children,  one now and one around the time Ryan graduates,  but if not and we have to do this whole process again I will be okay with that.  It's not fun but its not as horrible as I thought. 

Thank's to everyone who has kept us in there prayer's. We are so lucky to have so much support. I have definitely felt the love and calming affect it has had on me, and couldn't get through this without it.  I do not know why we have this trial in life,  but I do know there has been alot of good to come out of this. 

Lunar Eclipse

Because this hasn't happened in the United States for the last 18 years, and probably will not happen again for another 18 years here is my proof of the lunar eclipse.

We did not have a welder's mask, or glasses from the planetarium.  We tried the pin hole and it worked but it was anticlimactic.  So I reverted to taking pictures with my phone without actually looking at the sun for any direct length of time.

I took this one on our way home from my mom's in the car.   I caught the tail end of the eclipse,  the shadow on the left is pretty cool I think.

Don't you worry eclipse, I have a little time so next time you come I'll be prepared!



So close!

We are so close to retrieval, it got pushed back a day because my little follicles weren't ready so we are looking at Monday most likely,  which is good because I am tired of the whole process.  Tired of talking about it, blogging about it and living it.   I feel so whiny and so I probably talk and sound whiny,  which isn't attractive to anyone.   That's why I am hibernating and being anti-social this week.  No one wants to be around me,  probably not even Ryan lol.  

It's funny,  I was so scared of the needle and focused so much on it that now that doesn't even bother me (well as long as I have the numbing cream)  it's the after that is horrible.  I just ache all the time,  which I just have to keep telling myself that's a good sign.  It's working and everything looks great so suck it up Amanda.  

  I was talking to my mom the other day and mentioning how I could see how this whole process could be trying on a marriage.   It's taxing on you,   it literally has consumed our life these last two weeks.   We talk about going to dinner and then we think,  okay well we need to be home by this time so we can do this and get your shot done by this time. After my shot I'm useless.  I'm tired I go to sleep like 9pm.  Then throw in what seems like daily doctor's appointments and there really isn't time for much else.

I am so so lucky that I have Ryan as my partner,  he is amazing.   He has cooked me dinner almost every night the last 2 weeks,   he plays Dr. and nurse mixing all the meds and giving me my shots, and then he rubs my back afterward to try to help with the aching.  He let's me cry when I start to freak out about doing all this and it still not working.  He goes and sleeps in the front room instead of waking me up if I am tossing and turning because I can't get comfortable.   He really is the best.   I am not glad that we have had to resort to all of this to be able to have a baby, but I am so glad that we have faced numerous things in our first two years of marriage that could have really put a strain on us as a couple and it has done the exact opposite.  I am more in love with him now than I was the day I married him.

Here is a few pics for documenting sake.   I will make our future child read this year of blogs in high school when they are driving me nuts.  So I need to have pictures also :)

Ryan missing my meds,  and yes that needle is big!

And just because she is cute my Mags and yes she is wearing a shirt :)