Soul Sunday

I love when I sit in church and the message really speaks to me. Some messages being in a home ward with no children yet do not speak to me. I am sure they will once we have a child but sometimes I leave feeling like I am still stuck in between singles ward and home ward not quite fitting in either place.

Today was our Ward Conference, our stake president is a great man. I actually know him through work since he is a lawyer we have used many times and I think it makes me listen all the more when he is speaking.

The lesson that stuck out to me the most today was in Gospel Doctrine about nourishing our marriage and our families, we watched a video of a injured husband in the hospital with his wife by his side and there child and family members in the waiting room. After we had a discussion about what we noticed. A few comments were, his injury didn't just affect one person he had many people waiting to find out if he is okay, how was he injured he wasn't with his wife since she was fine was he doing something he shouldn't have been. Then Bro. Stephenson said he was looking at a plant that is dying in his house and wondering why, he is watering it and he knows how to take care of it yet he must not be doing enough.

We all know how to nourish our marriages but do we do it? In the last couple of months I have seen couples get divorced I never thought would. When I first met them years ago they were happy loving families, but like life does they were thrown trials and instead of sticking together through them they drifted apart. Like the people in the waiting room their decisions have not just affected them but their children and extended families. I have seen parents who once having children have stopped being a couple and are now just mom and dad, they pour all there time and energy into their children thinking they are giving them the world but in the end when at the end of the day they have no time for each other they are actually hurting them.

I don't presume to know exactly how I will be after we have children. I know that our every weekend dates and our out of town weekends will decrease while they are young of course. But I also know I grew up in a house where we did not sleep in our parents room or bed ever that was their space, that almost every Friday night we had a babysitter so my parents could go out, that my grandparents watched us a few times a year so my parents could have a week or a weekend away together and I know I saw my parents kiss, hug and love each other daily. They showed me they not only loved me, but they loved each other.

I pray I never stop nourishing my marriage and my family, that I love my children by always loving my husband and putting our family relationships to each other and to Heavenly Father first.

Now we wait...

All went well yesterday, the embryos looked good and the doctor was happy with the placement and the quality.

The whole procedure took like 6 minutes, the waiting with a full bladder needing to pee for 45 minutes before that and 20 minutes after was the hard part.

Ryan took good care of me yesterday and our friends the Barney's came over and brought us dinner last night. My mom and aunt are coming over today to stay with me and I am just laying down with my feet up for the next three days. I have one job, make these babies comfy :)

Here is the picture of them :). I think they are cute but I am biased so let's hope one of them at least turns into a little baby!

We won't know anything for almost 2 weeks for sure. So now we wait...

Man oh Man!

These progesterone shots are NO joke!  I have only done a few and my back is bruised and hurting already. To say I want to do them for a few months more would be a lie,  but doing them for 8-10 weeks more means we are pregnant and that I want more than words can say.

Our first night of them Ryan put on the numbing cream and put the bandage over,  we waited the hour and when 7:00pm came (the time I need to take my shot)  he took off the bandage and did the tester with a safety pin to make sure I didn't feel anything.   Well guess what.....I DID!  I felt everything and I started to panic!   A crying fit ensued with my sobbing and saying I can't do this for 3 months over and over for about 15 minutes.

Just in case anyone is wondering why I was scared....Here is the needle and the 2ml of oil...

Yes it's big and yes that's alot of oil! NIGHTLY people NIGHTLY...

Anyways,  we decided to put more cream on and let it sit for another 30 minutes and thank goodness it worked!  I was a hour late taking my shot but it was worth it.

It has worked since then, so I am hoping it was a fluke thing.  I have gotten pretty good at getting my blood taken and taking the little needles with no stress and no pain other than a pinch,  but I draw the line at the big guns.  How people do them with no numbness I have no idea.

THIS JUST IN....

4 more days till transfer!!!

In other news, Ryan is still sick, not as sick but his cold is pretty bad.   He has taken up shop in the front room for sleeping and as much as I miss him, it's been kind of awesome to sleep in the middle of our king bed for a few nights.   We are hoping he can come back tomorrow night, but if his cold doesn't get better he will be in the front room until the transfer at least.

Never thought I would spend my anniversary night not even sleeping in the same bed as my husband,  no kiss, no hug, no touching. nothing. It was super sad.  He did buy me beautiful flowers and gave me the sweetest card.  Our plans for going out to dinner were scrapped and so I picked up Shrimp Taco Tuesday Cafe Rio and we ate on opposite ends of the table watching Shark Week and then he went back to sleep.   So romantic I know,  but we just need to remember we did it for the sake of our baby.  We have waited months for this and a cold is not going to ruin everything!

Thank goodness two weeks ago Ryan surprised me and took me to the Venetian for a early anniversary date.   He took me to Delmonico's (Emeril's steakhouse) and it was amazing.   Ryan ordered the rib eye  when it came out it looked like this:

Yeah 22 ounces of meat!  He gave it a good college try but he did not finish :)

We also took a gondola ride and just walked around.  It was a great night!

So why our household is full of sickness, and hormonal mess crying right now,  we just need to remember we always have the Venetian :)





I am slacking...

It is so much easier if I updated weekly or close to so I don't forget what we have done.  Since it has been a few weeks I know their has been some swimming,  some dinner's with friends.   A early anniversary date with my honey and a celebration dinner with my brothers.

But life is busy and I have no time to post pictures or anything right now.

I am mainly posting to document we have exactly one week to go,  we went to the doctor's this morning and everything looks great.  I start my new shots tomorrow (not looking forward to that,  it's the big needle and on my anniversary too!),  our embryo's are thawed on Wednesday and this weekend we will have a better understanding of how they are looking and which ones we will implant.

Next week when I am home on bed rest I will catch up and post pictures of recent fun times. In between reading the book I have been saving on my kindle, and watching the 2nd season of Downton Abbey,  the 1st season of Friday night lights and The Hunger Games :)

Before I go,  a shout out to my love tomorrow is our 2nd anniversary!!  We have no plans because my shot has to be done right at dinner time so we will probably order in and then Ryan will go study.  So lame I know, but life is crazy right now. 

I have loved everyday of the last two years.   He is my rock!!

From our 2nd or 3rd date (a scavenger hunt!)