I really am..I miss blogging.
I was going back and reading through my IVF journey and I was so good at documenting and expressing my feelings and then I got pregnant and got sick and that went by the way side. I finally started feeling better, blogged a little and now I am at the uncomfortable stage again and go to sleep at 8:00pm which doesn't leave much chance of blogging. I haven't pulled out my camera in I can't remember when, my only form of pictures is my iPhone and what I post on Instagram. So I really am lame.
As far as my pregnancy goes, we have about 10 weeks left! I am hoping for 9, I would like to be induced so we can be home for a week and settle in before Ryan starts the craziness of Grad School finals. But you never know what baby wants to do. Great time to have a baby huh?
The nursery is still coming along, it's a work in progress and we hope to have it all done by the end of March
This is a horrible picture but its all I have..
Ryan stripped, sanded and painted this little dresser for Holden. I love how it turned out. Now we have a changing table left to do in the same color. My mother in law already made a changing pad for it :)
I had a dream that after all these boy clothes and shoes that we ended up having a girl, my last ultrasound helped clear up any confusion. Holden is still definitely a boy! It would have been a nightmare if he wasn't I have had three shirts made with his name on them. One is even to go home from the hospital LOL
Now the only dream I keep having is that I don't make it to the hospital in time for a epidural. I have had it a few times now and I woke up crying once. I thought for about a half a second about going natural, then I went on youtube and watched 2-3 natural births and that thought went away. It scared the crap out of me! I want a epidural and I will make sure I am there on time to get one. :)
Other than preparing for our little guy to arrive we haven't been doing much. Ryan has been studying like crazy for mid semester exams and I sleep alot. We were able to go to St. George over Valentine's Day weekend and go to the Parade of Homes and have a nice dinner at The Painted Pony. It was so nice to get away and just relax.
I am trying to train a few girls at work to do parts of my job so when I am gone the place doesn't fall apart. My bosses are still in denial mode and feel like we have so much time before baby comes but it's really only 2 months away and time goes fast.
I feel really bad for Ryan right now, I am at the uncomfortable stage and with pregnancy making me snore we don't sleep in the same bed all week, only on the weekends if we go to bed at the same time. I miss having him next to me and just cuddling, but I know he needs his sleep for school and if he can't get it with me snoring then he needs to be in the other room and get a good nights sleep. I always heard from people that being pregnant made their hormones crazy and they couldn't get enough lovin. That has not happened to me at all, being sick for 18 weeks is a real mood killer. Then I felt great for about 6-7 weeks and that part of our lives got better and now here we are again almost 31 weeks and it's gone again. I'm trying to keep it alive because I love Ryan more than anything and I'm attracted to him and I normally love our intimacy in our relationship, but honestly it's hard. I feel like crap most of the time, I take a bath every night to help my back and I'm asleep by 8:00pm. Sexy huh?? He is such a champ and I know our marriage is solid as a rock and that even though that part of our marriage isn't on full speed right now, we still spend every week and weekend together being close and loving each other. But I am ready to have this baby, recover and get back to some more me and Ryan time!
I am going to try to be better about updating during this last stage for me to print out in my blog book and I am going to try to be better about taking pictures. I have two baby showers coming up. One by Kristen and Melissa in my ward that will be so fun. They are so crafty and thoughtful and I am so excited. And one by my friends that should have lots of people at it. So I need to document it all!
Until next time..
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