Gosh my kid is cute!!

Going on 4 months and I'm still obsessed with him!

He gets cuter every day.

He loves playing peek a boo,  he is super ticklish,  he LOVES his dad,  and he is now obsessed with the dogs.

I can't imagine my life without him.  He is my own little dress up doll :)

Cereal Anyone?

This kid is eating cereal now!

 

He will start veggies on Tuesday, September 3rd after his 4 month check up and the okay from the Dr.

 

He is super messy and we are having fun.

 

I can't believe he is getting so big.

 

 

 

 

Also this is the way he drinks his bottle now.   He really want's to do it himself

 





Oh the difference a year makes!

Last year on August 20, 2012 I remember feeling nauseous and scared.  Our transfer was set to happen at 3:00pm in the afternoon.  I went to work that morning and then left to go home at lunch just to try to pass the day.  Every shot, both retrievals and the waiting game to see if our embryo's would develop led up to that day.   The night before our doctor had called and said we still had 4 viable embryo's and they were preparing the two best looking for the transfer and we were a go.  I don't think I slept well that night because of the nerves.

 

We got to the clinic and you could tell it was "transfer day" by all the other couple in the waiting room with a look of panic and nervousness on their faces.   Ryan and I sat there and held hands and waited for our name to be called.   Once we got back all I could concentrate on was the fact I really needed to pee (they make you have your bladder full for transfer)  I was so afraid I was going to pee on the doctor lol.  The whole transfer took 15 minutes and then I was sent home to rest for 4 days. 

 

Those 4 days were the longest and most boring of my life.  I was stuck on the couch and in bed just watching TV, reading books and praying I was carrying a baby now in my belly.  Our doctor warned us that day 5 results are rare and that most find out day 10.  So what a shock when on the morning of Day 5 while I am vacuuming and Ryan was out golfing we got the call of our lives!  We were going to be parents!

 

Two weeks later we found out we were expecting twins.  Shock was putting it mildly!  We were so excited,  only to learn a short 4 weeks later that one of our babies had stopped growing.

 

It is so crazy to me how I remember every little detail about those days. It seems like just yesterday and yet also a lifetime ago.

 

Today we are the proud parents of a happy, healthy almost 4 month old little boy.  I cannot imagine my life without him.

 

August 20th will always be a day I will remember because it is the day that made me a mom to my little man.  I thank Heavenly Father every day for Holden and for the chance to be his mom.  We hope someday to be able to add a sibling to our family and hope we are able to do it naturally. I would actually LOVE to be completely shocked and surprised, to not even be trying and get pregnant because everything with IVF is so planned. But if not I am prepared to go through it all again just to have one more August 20th day :)

 



Three Years

Me and this hot guy just celebrated 3 years of marriage and this last year was our hardest so far.  Not that our relationship suffered, in fact it's the opposite, we grew stronger together.  It was just our hardest year from fertility meds, to pregnancy, delivery and a newborn. 

 

With a new baby in the house we aren't going out of town or somewhere fancy for our anniversary,  just a nice dinner this weekend to celebrate.  In fact on our actual anniversary we made homemade salads and went to YW/YM mutual at the church. What a difference a year makes :)

 

I love so many things about this guy, not counting his looks which are pretty hot :)  

 

I love that he works hard at school to get the best grades he can for our family

I love that he gets up in the middle of the night with our baby to feed him half the time so I am not a zombie at work.

I love the little notes he leaves me on the counter

I love the priesthood blessings he brings to our home

I love that he made me a mom

I love that he made me his wife

I love that he is my best friend and has my back 100% of the time

I love that even though I haven't lost all the baby weight yet he still makes me beautiful

I love to see him play with his baby,  they are my two favorite people to watch

I love that he loves to go out to eat as much as I do

I love that he loves to travel and is okay that I am a planning fool

I love that every night when he gave me my shots he went through with my ridiculous steps to make sure I was numb.

 

I love that he is my eternal companion and that I get to spend many more years making memories with him.

 

2012-2013 was our hardest and best year to date.

 

I'm excited for what's next!

Love you forever Ryan :)





August already??

Has it really already been almost 3 1/2 months of being a mom??  It is going by WAY to fast!

 

People ask me if I remember what it was like before I became a mom?   I think they want my answer to be No, but my answer is always YES I slept in more!  I remember what my life was like before, but I don't want that life anymore.  Yes, I want to sleep in again at some point in my life, but at 7:00am on a Saturday morning when my baby is so happy and smiling and laughing there is no where else I would rather be.  He is the best part of my day, every.single.day.

 

I took this video of Ryan and Holden the other night.   I have watched it probably 15-20 times, sometimes in the middle of the day at work when I am missing my boys.  It makes me smile every time! 

 

 

 

I cannot believe how big he is getting,  not only have I packed up all his newborn clothing but a lot of his 0-3 months don't fit anymore. 

 

 

At 3 months Holden's stats are:

Weight 12.12lbs (38%)

Height: 25" (85%)

 

He is following us with his eyes everywhere.

He has finally noticed the dogs and will actually go to touch them now.

He loves his playmat and is up to 10-15minutes straight of tummy time.

He is trying to roll, but not quite there.

He loves baths and showers and I can keep him in the bath playing for a good 15-20 minutes before he gets fussy.

He just got done being diagnosed with reflux,  he was not eating or sleeping well for 4 days and both Lisa (his babysitter) and I knew something was off.   Once we got the meds from the doctors, within two days he was back to sleeping 9-3, 3:30-7.

 

 

I went back to work on July 22nd,  it was hard.  But Lisa his babysitter is amazing, he is only one of two kids at her house and the other little girl is 17 months so he is the only baby.  He gets so much attention and she sends me pictures if he does something cute.   In a perfect world I would get to be with him all day but since I have to work this is the best case scenario for us.  She has made being at work so much easier for me.

 

Next month for Holden's 4th month birthday we will be in Parowan for Labor Day.  Ryan is already planning on taking him on his first ATV ride and for his 5th month birthday we are taking him to San Diego with his girlfriend Ari and going to the Zoo!  Then before you know it Halloween is here (I already have the whole families costumes)  and then Christmas (I already have a list of possible toys lol) 

 

I don't want him to grow up but I do because every month he gets more personality and so much more playful.  We are having the time of our lives with him!

 



 

Yeah he is cool...