So close!

We are so close to retrieval, it got pushed back a day because my little follicles weren't ready so we are looking at Monday most likely,  which is good because I am tired of the whole process.  Tired of talking about it, blogging about it and living it.   I feel so whiny and so I probably talk and sound whiny,  which isn't attractive to anyone.   That's why I am hibernating and being anti-social this week.  No one wants to be around me,  probably not even Ryan lol.  

It's funny,  I was so scared of the needle and focused so much on it that now that doesn't even bother me (well as long as I have the numbing cream)  it's the after that is horrible.  I just ache all the time,  which I just have to keep telling myself that's a good sign.  It's working and everything looks great so suck it up Amanda.  

  I was talking to my mom the other day and mentioning how I could see how this whole process could be trying on a marriage.   It's taxing on you,   it literally has consumed our life these last two weeks.   We talk about going to dinner and then we think,  okay well we need to be home by this time so we can do this and get your shot done by this time. After my shot I'm useless.  I'm tired I go to sleep like 9pm.  Then throw in what seems like daily doctor's appointments and there really isn't time for much else.

I am so so lucky that I have Ryan as my partner,  he is amazing.   He has cooked me dinner almost every night the last 2 weeks,   he plays Dr. and nurse mixing all the meds and giving me my shots, and then he rubs my back afterward to try to help with the aching.  He let's me cry when I start to freak out about doing all this and it still not working.  He goes and sleeps in the front room instead of waking me up if I am tossing and turning because I can't get comfortable.   He really is the best.   I am not glad that we have had to resort to all of this to be able to have a baby, but I am so glad that we have faced numerous things in our first two years of marriage that could have really put a strain on us as a couple and it has done the exact opposite.  I am more in love with him now than I was the day I married him.

Here is a few pics for documenting sake.   I will make our future child read this year of blogs in high school when they are driving me nuts.  So I need to have pictures also :)

Ryan missing my meds,  and yes that needle is big!

And just because she is cute my Mags and yes she is wearing a shirt :)